This birthday gave me the gift of slowing down.
When we rush, our loving world gives us a gentle reminder to slow down, because we always get what we need.
I had been rushing to get things done and neglected the time and space I needed from myself. It was my birthday week so my days were booked with gatherings with friends. I was blessed to spend time with friends but could feel I was starting to crave that alone time to be with myself.
I realize I really need that time with myself because it is when I am most creative and get to see my loving truth.
Well, I was exiting the gym (and in a hurry to get home to change and go to the beach with my friend) at the same time as a Uhual. He wasn’t backing up and I wasn’t either and I tried to make the turn when I scuffed the car to the right of me. I was shocked and sad because I don’t like any car trouble. Well that made the Uhaul finally say he was going around and I got out to check the damage to my car and the other person’s car. It was so bummed because this was my first accident that was my fault ever.
My friend Katie offered to drive, was super patient with me after that slowed the plans down the plans, dropped me off to leave the note for the driver because I couldn’t find them, packed snacks for the beach, was my photographer.
I felt so loved and supported, and that we are never alone. Sometimes it takes a mistake to show you how blessed you are.
Not everything that we classify as “bad” is all bad. I saw how I am surrounded by such a loving community that loves me. One of my coaches came out to take a look at the damage, recommended a car detailer, made me laugh, and was there for me during this. He was so compassionate and reassured me it was fine and I was going to be alright. He was so right. His compassion made me realize I was being too hard on myself and mistakes happen. When things like this happen they are an opportunity for redirection with purpose.
I knew this was the universe kindly asking me to slow down and move with intention and to release this old fear. Because once it happened I was like oh, this wasn’t too bad, lets go to the beach.
I ended up having the best day because of this. When I slowed down I saw how loved I was and I was rushing past all of it. As I was journaling at the beach I realized I was wearing shorts gifted a couple days ago from a friend; A beautiful lei picked up by another; A heart full of faith because of another; A smile on my face from playing with chalk with another.
And that I had experienced sweat and laughter from the new gym community I found; the perfect beach bag that came to me right after I asked for it with my favorite products in it; Rosy cheeks from the tourist boy from Texas who jumped over the fence to stop me and tell me I was beautiful while I was laughing on the phone with my sister; Faith in my heart from the stranger who was so kind after I scuffed their car;
We get to give things purpose in our lives. We know why they happened because they are always delivered with love. We always get what we need and it is always enough. I learned to wear love patiently and see life can really be this good. If you stop to look around I think you’ll see there is so much love and beauty in the now.
Love,
Jessica
